No Celexa in China
I dreamed that I was in China on a trip with S., my ex. I forgot my anti-depressant, Celexa. When I realized that I'd forgotten it I became absolutely panicked and forlorn. I started sobbing! I thought about how complicated it could be to get more and worried about the withdrawal. S. was comforting, that we would work it out. I wondered if there was a way to get back home and grab it and then return (irrational thought). A part of me also felt free without the Celexa and no way to get it and in a foreign land. I felt mad at myself too. I thought about how there were only a few things I should remember on a trip, particularly out of the country, and how could I forget the medication? S. told me that she felt bad that she hadn't reminded me either.
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I recently had a dream that I was in Morocco (I deleted that post due to not being able to delete a comment...don't ask!). In the Morocco dream, I was with my family and felt like I was having a difficult time coping far away. So this dream is very similar.
My mom just sold the house I have known as my home for all my life.
I'm dating someone, L., and that is like a foreign country, a new person. L. slept over the second time last night, when I had the dream.
S. was very supportive during my depression, even if factors in our relationship contributed to my symptoms. S. and I still talk, and our last talk was nice. At the time we broke up, I had been off meds for six months. I broke up, stopped treatment with my therapist, and got back on meds all at the same time. In this dream am I wondering how our relationship would have been had I been on meds?
Dark thought: is the foreign land death? Or maybe more positive, like an unknown future.
Are you worried about how Celexa may affect your new relationship?
It's almost the ioth anniversary Dec. 4) of gramma's death. She was a comforting person in your life. I am too. I love you. You can always work out or resolve any problem. Not to worry. B
Mia, interesting thought.
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